...is the time I started to write this. I am here because somewhere in this heart beat is the will to write.
I just got done watching Armageddon here at my home. Great movie of hope, fear, trial, victory, and love. It moves me...so here I am. I guess I now write so those things can grow in others like I think they grow in me. Not that I wish fears or trials on others, but rather the growth that comes from enduring them.
I love you all...dearly....
I just opened an email before getting on here, whilst I was watching the movie...Alegria, Cirque Du Soleil production is coming to Salt lake city, Utah. It will be the second show from cirque in one year that will be here for viewing at the E center. Needless to say, I am MORE than excited to see it. I opened the email, read what it contained, saw the name "Alegria" which means "jubilation" and for some reason my thoughts returned to you...
"Jubilation", or "extreme joy" is indeed what we all want or seek in this life...we all know that it is what we want. We all for the most part know why we want it, and yet as I have mentioned before in a previous post long ago, it is not the what or the why that makes life a challenge to live; It is the constant journey to and from the paradox of "HOW".
The road we walk is the "what", our stops are the "where's", our friends are the "who's", the memory's we obtain designate the "when's"...but what is it that makes the "how's" something that drives us to continue along the way?
Could the combination of "what's, where's, who's and when's" some how create the "how's" that teach us everything we need to know?
"Oel ngáti kámeie" or simply to say, "I see you" is something SO beautiful to me. When I recall to mind the who's, what's, where's, and when's, it is only then that the 'how' comes to mind...and there it is again. "Oel ngáti kámeie"... How could this have happened? How could I have done this? How could I be here? How could I accomplish all that I have? How are you still in my life? How am I a part of your life? Or am I at all? How is life to be lived? How does one keep hope? Hope for life, love, dreams, or this world? Oel ngáti kámeie...that is how. To see you...is to see everything....
My kids have done well this season and to that I am proud. They took 3rd in both standard and latin medley. Provo High Varsity was 1st, extreme ballroom was 2nd, and Provo JV was 3rd. How proud I was to stand there among my kids whom I cherish so dearly...and watch them take their place among those who thought them incapable. Nights such as those make me truly proud to be their coach. Not because of anything I could do for them, but everything they did for themselves. They beat every other Varsity or A team that was there competing...
I love them...
Well, I must take my leave now I am trying this thing that some say is healthy for me...more sleep or some ridiculous idea like that. I don't know what people are thinking when they say such incongruous strings of vocabulary...and yet I feel inclined to listen...maybe they are on to something??? We shall see...until next we speak over the intellectual waves cyberspace...
Oel ngáti kámeie
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4 comments:
The truth of all of this is that in the How, you find a deeper connection with all the Where, Why, Who, and When. Those all can become confusing in a state of knowledge, which we come to seek.
How is something, I myself continue to fight with. I ask fervently, myself, God...others, How? And the answer is never quite more than that of a whisper, a hint. And I am left in a Perturbation. I find it best to just let everything pass with the time that is given, and find the answers 'When' they come in their time. And so, I wait.
Sometimes I feel like I'm reading gibberish, as you are such a deep person, then I read the comment by Tiauna, and again, gibberish, you 2 go far too deep for me! But, I loved the post. Loved seeing you are still around. Jack checks (as we are on here almost daily) to see if you have posted, and you have. Thank you. Congrats on the team, that is awesome! We will write you soon. For now, this big pregnant mama needs to go lay down!
Mindi, I love hearing from you! You're too cute!
Okay, so...are you ever going to update the blog, or should I just give up hope?
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