I am very old fashioned.....living in an incredibly modern and complicated world of confusion governed by the heavy, and often abused gavel of human emotions....no wonder no one in this world knows how to communicate....
The worth of ones weight in gold, is designated of its value, sent through a text message and the world is ok with that. The realm of love, has become just a game, played without second thought or consideration of its devastating effects.
I watch as the emptiness of those close to me, drives them to action that I know, and they know, will leave them in regret. How do I take a world, longing for flight, and show them the elevation of such accomplishment, without having to take a dive into the depths of darkened despair.
It is with great desire, that I seek the best in those around me, and the best for those around me...even at the sacrifice of things once thought valuable. For what is value in oneself, if not to give to those who think nothing of you?
...may sun warmed winds fill your wings of imagination, and send you soaring where your dreams may find grand architecture of reality. I hope in that reality you truly find what you are looking for...
I love you...
Dreacis Supereous
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
A Beautiful Day!
....today was indeed a beautiful day! Why one may ask, simply because of the happenings in said day. Not that anything terribly obvious took place, but as it is written, "by small and simple things, are great things brought to pass."
Today I went to help a dear friend simply by opening a door for her that was locked. To most people it might have just seemed like a simple or common gesture, and that it was. However, by doing such act moved into action things through out the day that would make my day better as each second passed.
Opening the door, bringing a friend and myself together in conversation, allowed me to be open to her, and to the things she is aware of. We spoke, and yet said nothing, but enough was felt. She knows me better than she thinks she does, but she berates herself as if to say she is not good enough. She needs to know that she is.
She has a gift, but does not know how to use it yet. In time she will learn it. That makes me smile... :)
Whether or not she will ever know, her concern for my wellness, and the current state of my heart, means much to me.
Thank you
As salaam alaikum,
vaya con dios,
The Sea Turtle...
Today I went to help a dear friend simply by opening a door for her that was locked. To most people it might have just seemed like a simple or common gesture, and that it was. However, by doing such act moved into action things through out the day that would make my day better as each second passed.
Opening the door, bringing a friend and myself together in conversation, allowed me to be open to her, and to the things she is aware of. We spoke, and yet said nothing, but enough was felt. She knows me better than she thinks she does, but she berates herself as if to say she is not good enough. She needs to know that she is.
She has a gift, but does not know how to use it yet. In time she will learn it. That makes me smile... :)
Whether or not she will ever know, her concern for my wellness, and the current state of my heart, means much to me.
Thank you
As salaam alaikum,
vaya con dios,
The Sea Turtle...
Sunday, August 23, 2009
A little on the lost side....
because I just don't know what my head and my heart are telling me. I sit here, and though I face simple questions in my life, that seemingly should have simple answers as well...I find myself at a loss for words both silently and audibly.
What is the path that takes us to the place we want to be? I was out riding last night, and near the 23rd hour was brought to a sense of realization when I opened my eyes and beheld the Provo temple in the veil of my vision. Stranded upon my knees, paralyzed from movement, all I could do was watch the spectacle of heavenly manifestation pour out answers in silence. All questions that seemed to need the command of logic, found confidence in the serenity that was the temple grounds. All confusion that demanded clarity found peace of mind within the prayers that were offered...
...and yet today, Sunday, day of rest and refuge, I found neither in the activity of light that was the sun. Little consolation did I find in the open arms of nature through the passing wind during my motorcycle ride. Although I did find good company in the friends that were with me, my heart and mind seemed to conjure enmity for each other, and I could not explain why.
My heart tells me one thing, and obedience to that which my heart dictates is never in question...and today, I could not obey. Mental capacities that would offer a course of action based upon logical reason simply malfunctioned, and blurred the visual course it should have provided...
I am lost...I know that now.... I thought I was found, and realize now that the depths of distance had become the illusion of security in which I had built such a false hope.
...His name should be the path...I Hope it is. Her name should be the hope...I pray it is. My voice should be the prayer...I beg to be heard. To hear his name...should be the path...
...Is this the storm???
What is the path that takes us to the place we want to be? I was out riding last night, and near the 23rd hour was brought to a sense of realization when I opened my eyes and beheld the Provo temple in the veil of my vision. Stranded upon my knees, paralyzed from movement, all I could do was watch the spectacle of heavenly manifestation pour out answers in silence. All questions that seemed to need the command of logic, found confidence in the serenity that was the temple grounds. All confusion that demanded clarity found peace of mind within the prayers that were offered...
...and yet today, Sunday, day of rest and refuge, I found neither in the activity of light that was the sun. Little consolation did I find in the open arms of nature through the passing wind during my motorcycle ride. Although I did find good company in the friends that were with me, my heart and mind seemed to conjure enmity for each other, and I could not explain why.
My heart tells me one thing, and obedience to that which my heart dictates is never in question...and today, I could not obey. Mental capacities that would offer a course of action based upon logical reason simply malfunctioned, and blurred the visual course it should have provided...
I am lost...I know that now.... I thought I was found, and realize now that the depths of distance had become the illusion of security in which I had built such a false hope.
...His name should be the path...I Hope it is. Her name should be the hope...I pray it is. My voice should be the prayer...I beg to be heard. To hear his name...should be the path...
...Is this the storm???
Friday, August 21, 2009
Mindi....for you...
I know you probably don't want to hear this either, but I'm not sure how much you get on here, or read these things, even after you leave comments... Mindi, my dear Mindi... You have been, and are one of my closest and most cherished friends. Track record or not, I have loved you dearly for longer than many will ever know. One cannot just give that away, or forget what things have been done because of someone in our lives. You are my friend, you will always be my friend. I gladly read your advice with full heart, and know that you mean only the best for me. That is what friends do. As dear as you are to me, you will always be such. Thank you for everything you have done for me, and everything you have been to me.
God bless and God speed...
Love ya~
Jacob
P.S. I could never dismiss rules one and two...even if I take the plunge...
God bless and God speed...
Love ya~
Jacob
P.S. I could never dismiss rules one and two...even if I take the plunge...
I thought it time....
to get on and post again. I'm sorry to all those who might have been following, and haven't got anything since transformers 2. It has been a while, and I have nothing to say for it, or even to blame it on, but, just not getting on, and not posting anything.
But not to worry. I am here, and all of you can tell me everything about nothing! Just how I like it!
I am here to ask some advice....I am trying my absolute best to move my life in some kind of direction, opposite where it was, and where it used to be. Not that I don't like the direction it was traveling, but perhaps I just might need some motivation in the likes of a new direction, whether or not I like that new direction.
The name of said direction: Drum roll please..........."Dating!!!" DUN DUN DUN!!!!(said with a descending melody tone, and ominous music playing in the background)
My heart desires that which it has not been able to find in a long time. The close companionship of someone dear and special. I miss making memories of deep and sentimental value with someone that I care dearly about. I have been working to make pass all those cherished memories of near distant past, in order to make room inside the realm of emotion for something new.
It is proving more difficult than I ever thought...
But perhaps in the interest of eternal perspective...I thought maybe I was wrong, and maybe it is time that I do my absolute best to take a new direction. Like I said before, that direction being "dating", I really don't know how to approach this new direction, and more importantly, I fear it more than anything.
How do I overcome this fear? How to I take this new direction with open heart and heavy conviction that it very well could be the right road?
So it is, I ask that anyone who follows or who reads, might shed some light on the subject.
I love you all.
God bless and God speed...
The Brown Guy
But not to worry. I am here, and all of you can tell me everything about nothing! Just how I like it!
I am here to ask some advice....I am trying my absolute best to move my life in some kind of direction, opposite where it was, and where it used to be. Not that I don't like the direction it was traveling, but perhaps I just might need some motivation in the likes of a new direction, whether or not I like that new direction.
The name of said direction: Drum roll please..........."Dating!!!" DUN DUN DUN!!!!(said with a descending melody tone, and ominous music playing in the background)
My heart desires that which it has not been able to find in a long time. The close companionship of someone dear and special. I miss making memories of deep and sentimental value with someone that I care dearly about. I have been working to make pass all those cherished memories of near distant past, in order to make room inside the realm of emotion for something new.
It is proving more difficult than I ever thought...
But perhaps in the interest of eternal perspective...I thought maybe I was wrong, and maybe it is time that I do my absolute best to take a new direction. Like I said before, that direction being "dating", I really don't know how to approach this new direction, and more importantly, I fear it more than anything.
How do I overcome this fear? How to I take this new direction with open heart and heavy conviction that it very well could be the right road?
So it is, I ask that anyone who follows or who reads, might shed some light on the subject.
I love you all.
God bless and God speed...
The Brown Guy
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